Active Seeking: A year in review
As I type this, there is a blizzard going on outside my window. That makes it a perfect day to tuck in and plot the upcoming year. Before I draft up a list I took a moment to look back at the previous year and I was actually a bit awestruck. I traveled to London, Shanghai and Italy to study modern art during the 2017 Biennale. I created a body of work that surprised even me! I joined on with my first art gallery and had earned more that I have any other year as an artist.
This past year was a year for me to "tuck in" somewhat and to pull myself away and just create. The freedom that I allowed myself created a fundamental shift in how I viewed myself as an artist. Stepping away from any self imposed pressure led to long stretches of art history research and wrestling out emotional and spiritual convictions. It was a year to grow.
An interesting thing happened and I saw dramatic results in allowing myself this freedom...I began to PLAN and being the personality I am planning meant too much questioning. Should I go this way or that way? This became a loop that I almost got lost in but for me, I heard the faint echo of Dr. Phil ask, "How's that working out for you?"
Not well. Too much musing and research can lead to indecision and that can lead to brain and productivity mush. I imagine I looked like a woman carrying around a giant rubik's cube until I had an awakening and I realized that I personally don't need to solve every problem or art question myself. I have turned a corner, which sounds like an easy thing to do but in reality it took about a year of corner turning, to really trust that the answers will come. I realized that what I am seeking is actively seeking me.
So in the New Year, I am seeking abundance, ease and creativity (and FUN, naturally). How about you?